D-Day!

So wow! I can't believe that I have neglected my little bloggy space for my ENTIRE pregnancy! I have made it to the end (and will probably still go over by a bit) It's been a great pregnancy with really no complications at all. As of my appointment last week I was a steel trap still with no signs of this little one coming out. We did find out at 20 weeks that we are having a girl. We have decided to name her Lydia Rose. And don't laugh at me, but I got her name from the movie Innerspace (Dennis Quaid, Meg Ryan, Martin Short) Meg Ryan's character's name in it was Lydia. I was watching the movie shortly after we found out we were pregnant and just fell in love with the name! I have another appointment this afternoon to see if I have made any more progress (fingers crossed that something has happened! With any luck I will have my little girl by the time the weekend is out! Come on full moon and work your magic!!!!!!

Is Everybody Pregnant?

Seems like it. It's so funny how your midset changes when you are trying to conceive. Before I got married I would see a pregnant woman and be like "Oh, she's so cute with her belly, I can't wait till I can have one too". Now it's more like "Get out of my way you @#$%! preggo! Can't you see I don't want your big ol' belly in my face?!?!?" And I hate to be that way, but it is such a truth. The Hubster keeps telling people we are trying anytime they ask us if we have kids. I didn't mind at first, but now it's like, now that those people know, I feel like a failure every time they ask us if we are preggo yet. I'd rather not have people know and then be able to say "SURPRISE!!" But then again, who am I kidding....I'm putting our troubles out on the interwebs for all to see. Anyone he tells, can easily get on my Facebook page and click on the link to my blog and just read for themselves. But, on the other hand, people reading about it would know about my frustrations and hopefully have the scruples to not say anything to me about it. But that's asking a lot, I know. ***sigh*** I guess one can never win in this situation.

On the upside, even though he SWORE he wouldn't do it, the Hubster bought me a new car!! Its a 2010 Kia Soul Plus and I am absolutely in LOVE with it! The main reason I wanted a new car was so when we do have kids, we would be able to fit them in the car. My Jetta just wouldn't cut it I'm afraid. Plus, I had that car for 7 years. I think I was due for a new one, no? We got a really great deal on it too and the dealer was WAY generous on the trade in for the Jetta which is awesome!

Until next time!

Big Fuckin' Negative

So the abbreviation BFN stands for Big Fat Negative. I am officially renaming it Big Fuckin' Negative! Cause that's what I got....AGAIN! Whoop-de-dee-dooo! I'm pretty sure the Flo will be starting tomorrow, so it's off to another month. Wish us luck!

And we're waiting again...

So, we had a no go last cycle, so now we are onto Cycle 3. I have ovulated and fertility friend has NOT moved my ovulation date around 50 bajillion times this month!! The kicker on the last cycle? Towrds the end of the cycle, it moved it back to CD 12. Seriously? Just leave it there. Anyway....so now I am 9DPO and fighting the urge to take a test. I think the only thing keeping me from peeing on that damn stick is the fact that I am broke till payday and I only have 1 test left. I don't want to waste it by testing too early and then have to wait even longer to test again....that would totally suck!

So I've had a few different things happen this cycle. Not sure if they are "signs" per se, but I've never felt them before, so for all I know, they could be. The first one is a few days after I O'd I felt this strange fluttering in my lower stomach area. Now it could have been gas, but it was more like a muscle spasm type feeling (not painful, more like when your eye twitches) I felt it again just a few days ago as well. And of course I have the normal "signs", frequent peeing, sore boobies, etc. Time will tell in the end though.

We finally got all finished moving. Now comes the fun part....unpacking. I just have not had the motivation to do.that.at.all! Someday it will all get done. I need to get the boxes that are stacked in the dining room unpacked so I can at least set up the dining room table. Maybe that will be my goal for this week. Clear out the dining room and set up the table.....yeah.....we'll see if that happens......

Wating.....

So, I'm pretty unsure where I am at in my cycle. I chart my temps at www.fertilityfriend.com. However, for the first time EVER FF is screwing with my head. I have temped in the past before we were trying (even before I met my DH) just to see what my body does. It helped me to avoid getting preggo before cause I knew the signs and about where in my cycle I was to make sure I was extra careful. Now FF has decided to give me not 1, but 3!!! ovulation dates. The first one I was ok with, the second time, it just got moved up a day, not a problem cause we still had good timing. THEN it decides to move it AGAIN! To a date that is nowhere NEAR a day that we tried. I'm still thinking that the second day it gave me is correct, but suffice it to say, I have no clue where I am at in my cycle. I may be 8DPO or I may be 11 DPO. I guess I'll find out if my Aunt Flo shows up in the next few days. Still hoping she doesn't though.

On a happier note, we are finally moving out of the sh*t hole we live in this week!! Nothing gives me greater joy! Especially after the last few months we have spent there. The most recent being, they shut down the pool because the miscreants they let live there vandalized the pool area, which in turn means we can only use the gym during their office hours because the only other entrance is through the pool area. Not a problem right? Wrong. I, like most people, work during the day, and because of traffic I don't get home until well after the office closes. But that's not even the best part. I was able to get in there this weekend. I start running on the treadmill, get about halfway to my distance goal and the damn thing just shuts off on me. So I try to restart it, but it keeps resetting before I can get it going again. I finally get it going and after about 3 minutes (just as I was getting into my run) it shuts off again! I think that was the only piece of equipment left in the gym that actually did work. So now I am scouring Craigs List to see if I can find a decent one for cheap that we can use in our new house. And then, they didn't change the setting on the door going into the gym from the office so it doesn't automatically lock behind you. So, I, being the proactive one, leave the door cracked a bit so I can get back out. Doesn't some jerk come up while I'm on the treadmill and close it. So I go to leave and I am locked in the damn room. I bang on the door and no one answers. I call the office, no answer. Finally, I decided to go into the pool area to see if the door they didn't chain shut would open, and luckily it did, cause the moron who works in the office just up and left. Gotta love it.....

Baby Baby Baby....

So.....Pete and I have now been married for almost 2 months. The wedding could not have gone better (although the lead up to it left much to be desired) I can't think of one single thing that went wrong. Seems like everything bad that happened, happened before we left for NY. The honeymoon was AHHHHHmazing!! We went to Jamaica and did not do one thing for an entire week. Plus, I planned it perfectly so that our last night there also happened to be my birthday. And who doesn't want to spend their birthday in a tropical paradise.

So now we are back in the reality of things. We spent the last month looking for a place to live. It's only been a year since we last moved, but it seems like things have gotten way more strict in the way of rentals. We have a dog....she's part German Shepard....you've seen pictures of her. Most places will now no longer accept even a cross breed of a German Shep. The there are the cats. We are bad, we know. We only tell places we have 1 cat, because otherwise they won't take us at all. Never had a problem. Now what we were running into was that they wouldn't even take our "1" cat because he isn't declawed. Now I don't know about you, but I think that is the cruelest thing you can do to an animal. I mean, isn't pulling out fingernails deemed a form of torture in China?? So, needless to say, we wouldn't even consider those places. We we did finally find a really nice townhouse which is situated in between both of our jobs. We get to move in just a few short weeks and I can.not.wait!!!!! I do not even want to get into the problems we were having at our current apartment the week before the wedding.

So now that we have all of that figured out, we are on to our next big project. Starting our family. I'm hoping that it won't take us too long to accomplish this, but I know better. I do know that, on average, it takes a healthy normal couple at a mimimum of 6 months to get pregnant. So I am ready for that. But I'm also impatient, so we'll see how long my calmness lasts. We have just started our 2nd cycle. I can't wait to see where this blog goes as I start to chronicle this next journey in our lives.......Stay Tuned!

I must apologize again for neglecting my little bloggy space. I guess I just haven't had anything go on in my life that I felt the urge to write about. Even now, I am struggling to think of something interesting to say. I spend a good chunk of my day reading blogs (yes, I should be working, but business is slow....I can't stare at a wall for 8 hours ya know) I read about all of these interesting people and marvel at how they can continually come up with witty, funny, and inspiring posts day after day. It really makes me realize how utterly boring my life is. Other than work, my life consists of cooking, cleaning, Facebooking, and wedding planning. What will I do once the wedding is all planned?

Speaking of wedding planning...there have been a few new developments. I made my first payment toward my dress....only 9 or so more to go!!! I'm toying with the idea of using silk flowers for my bouquets instead of fresh. I went out and bought some that I really like, but I have no clue how to arrange them. My future mother in law and I are going to go out this weekend and get some more stuff and play around. We are also going to play around with centerpieces and see what we can come up with. I am craft challenged, so it will be interesting to see what happens. I made the joke that if I made the centerpieces there would be glue fingerprints all over them.

I'll be going home in May. Words cannot express how excited I am for this trip. For once, I will be home without something else going on (funeral, wedding...etc) I will be able to enjoy my family and friends with no pressure of HAVING to be anywhere. Other than wedding appointments I will be home free. The bonus is that my mother is buying my plane ticket. As my younger brother so aptly put it...."Holy shit....Hell froze over?" I hate to say it, but it's true. I love my mother, but she is the worst with money. Like I'm one to talk there though...c'est la vie!

I have been chugging away at my diet. I am currently down 6 pounds and I am so proud of myself for that. I would like to be down 10 more by the time I go home in May, but i have been sitting at 6 pounds lost for going on two weeks. I really just need to step up my working out. I've gotten a little slack in that lately and I need to not be.

Part of my diet entails me being able to have a little homemade sweet snack. So far I have been baking away making a yellow cake with frosting (from scratch), sugar cookies with icing (from scratch), coffee cake (okay it's all from scratch) and lastly chocolate and butterscotch chip cookies. I think being able to be "bad" once a day is keeping me motivated. I hate the deprivation that dieting gives you. I hate walking by store fronts or restaurants, thinking, man I wish I had one of those. Or going to the store specifically to buy a candy bar because I couldn't take it anymore....oh and a package of cookies for good measure too. If I consistently have something baked around me, I am less likely to overindulge when the cravings get to be too much. In these past few weeks I have found a new love of cooking and I have been trying out a bunch of new recipes. So far they have all been home runs. If you are looking for a great recipe site, then I definitely recommend www.sparkrecipes.com. Unlike other recipe sites, you can type in the ingredients you are cooking with along with the serving size and it will automatically calculate the nutrional values for everything. I have used it both to find new recipes to try out and also just to see how healthy my current recipes are. So far, not too bad.

Well, I suppose that is all for now. Take care

More Changes

For the sake of my wallet I have decided to compromise on a pretty big factor in my wedding. I have decided to NOT have my dress custom made. So now I have been scouring the web looking for dresses that represent the 1940's era...and aren't strapless!! (why are all dresses strapless??) I found two that I really love here and here. Comments would be much appreciated :-) Out of all the dresses Maggie Sottero definitely has caught my eye. I can't wait to go out there and try dresses on. In a way that makes my decision a little less painful. The one thing I felt that I was missing out on was going out and trying on tons of dresses and finding "The Perfect Dress". Now I get to do that. I want to go out now and start trying things on, but I know it is way too early to do that, so I am patiently (patiently...yeah right) biding my time.

On another good note, I won a contest over the weekend. You all should definitely check out The Bobby Pin blog.

On a bad note, I got woken up at 5:30 this morning to my fiancee telling me that we have a problem. Apparantly we have a mouse (probably mice) in the apartment. We could hear the damn think squeaking in one of the cupboards. So we called the on-call guy for our apartment but he could't find it. And there are no holes in the wall anywhere, so we are thinking the dang thing in is the wall. Great! Poor dog was going NUTS this morning....as were the cats. I think they all thought they were getting a snack.

Still Here

I know it has been a while since my last post, and for that, I apologize. I guess I just didn't have anything worthy to contribute. Things are going well with the wedding planning. We have our site booked for the Greystone Castle (http://www.thegreystonecastle.com/) and we also have our caterer picked out, so the BIG stuff is done. Well, other than the dress, that's the biggest thing in my opinion. I started working my part-time job last week and so far so good. I wasn't sure if I was going to like being on commission, but I had a pretty good weekend for sales, so I think it will work out. Especially with Christmas right around the corner. My boss is giving me some premo hours this weekend, so it should be a good day all in all.

Let's see...I applied for a job as a Front Office Manager for a hotel here in Denver. Turns out they hired someone right after I applied, so that was a no go. I'm not even sure if I want to get back into hotels or not. I guess I would only do it if the money were (was?) right (which it usually isn't) The hunt is still on for a better paying job.

Other than that, we are just living the dream. We're still waiting for the first snowfall. I would be perfectly content if it decides to wait until Christmas myself.

Hope all of you are doing well and enjoying the beautiful fall weather!

Goin to the Chapel.....

.....and I'm gonna get maaaaaarrrriiieeeeddddd!!! Yes, it is official that Pete and I are engaged!! We have been talking about it quite a bit and he asked me a few weeks ago. It's a cute story really. He woke me up out of a sound sleep to ask me and then the next morning I had to ask him if I was just dreaming or if he really asked me to marry him....definitely one to put in the story books. I went out ring shopping and have picked out the most beautiful ring ever! I can't wait until he actually gives it to me (which hopefully will be soon)

Since we had been talking about getting married we already had most of our plans for the wedding hashed out. For those of you who don't know here are the details. We have picked a date of 7-3-2010, pending site availability. We will be getting married in NY in the Thousand Islands (www.singercastle.com) again pending availability. We will be doing a 1940's themed wedding. I found a pattern online for a wedding dress from the '40's and I have already met with a dressmaker to have this dress recreated and custom fit for me. I am so excited about it!! I would post a picture of it, but I don't want Pete to see it until I walk down that aisle. I also have tentative bridesmaid dresses picked out (again, they will probably have to be made, just working out pricing issues now).

We told his family about the engagement over the weekend and it seems like they couldn't be happier. I called my family yesterday and spilled the news and they are overjoyed. My dad actually said that "Pete is the first guy you have brought home that I haven't wanted to kill" So I take that as a good sign :-)

So anyway, I will be updating with more details as time goes on.

Smashing Fat and All That (part 2)

So I have reached Day 10 of the Fat Smash Diet, and I must say that I am thoroughly inpressed with it. I lost just under 8 pounds in the first 9 days!!! Pete lost almost 10 1/2 pounds, so we are both really happy with the results. So now it is on to Phase 2. In this phase we get to bring meat back into our diet. The book says that you should have 2 meat servings a day, but I think I am only going to have 1 per day. I actually enjoyed eating the veggie burgers and fruit for lunch, so I am going to keep doing that. Some of the other things I found that I like....tofu, and soymilk. I've found a milk I can drink without gagging!! (or getting sick) So all in all, it's been a good experience so far. Of course our trip to NY is going to derail us a bit, but we are going to be packing a cooler with good food to eat for the car trip there and really we will only be eating bad for 2 days. I decided that I am going to go back to the detox phase when we get back so that I can reverse the damage I do during our vacation.

My friend E is coming up this weekend and we are going to be going back to the cabin we went to on the 4th. I'm really looking forward to it. I will definitely try to get more pictures this time.

Pete is up for a promotion at the company he is currently working for. We are both pretty excited about it. He will be getting a pretty good pay raise. His hours will be pretty crappy, but I think we can both deal with that. He is still waiting to hear about whether or not he got one of the police jobs he applied for. Keeping my fingers crossed on that one.

Other than that, life is good. :-)

Smashing Fat and all that....

Today Pete and I have started a new diet. It'c call the "Fat Smash Diet" and it was written by Ian Smith ( of Celebrity FitClub Fame). Right now we are in the "Detox" phase (phase I) which we will be doing for the next 9 days. Sadly in this phase I have to entirely cut out meat. For the first time ever in my life, I ate a veggie burger, and surprisingly, it was good. I rather enjoyed it. So, for the next 9 days it is fruits and veggies with a few other staples thrown in for good measure. I have to give up my beloved Diet Pepsi and my new found love of Starbucks Mocha Fraps, but I think in the end it will all be worth it. Just in reading some of the reviews online for this diet, the average person lost about 9-10 pounds in just the first phase alone. I am not looking for a miracle by any means, but, I do want to look fabulous when I go to NY for the wedding. Next weigh in is in 10 days.

Over the weekend Pete and I went to Water World for ouranniversary. We had such a blast, and I can't wait to go back soon. I have some pics and I will post them soon.]

As I said in my last post, Pete tested for Denver PD on Saturday as well. Unfortunately though, he didn't pass both sections of the testing. He had his interview with the Sherrif's Dept yesterday though, and he felt that went really well, and he has the info session for the other PD this Saturday. Keep your fingers crossed that something good comes out of this.

So Many Things...So Little Time.....

So life has been crazy. How could I expect it not to be. As most of you know Pete and I are going to be driving out to NY in a few weeks, both for my little bro's wedding and to get my dog and cats to bring them home. A large chunk of how we were going to afford this trip was using President Bush's oh so fabulous Stimulus Payment of $600. So I get my letter stating that my check is on its way and, yes, I am getting the full $600. Cue in a few weeks later and I get a letter from the IRS stating that they have taken my check and applied it to the tax bill I owed from 2007, oh and I still owe them $70. Let me take you back a few months to when I got my w-2 form from one of my past part-time employers. I open it up to find that they only took out like $100 in the 6months that I worked there. Now I don't know who screwed that up....me or them, but I was not happy to find that I now owe the Feds $655 in back taxes. So I go all the normal routes, file my return, with a payment plan proposal in order to pay back the money, which they accepted. I then receive a bill for $105, which I though was my first payment in the payment plan. OH NO!! When I receive the bill for the final $70 dollars I call up our wonderful IRS system (which by the way is next to impossible to get to a live person.....automated systems do NOT make things more simple Corporate America!!! It just pisses us off, so when we get to a real person, we are not as nice as we should be!!!) So, anyway, I call them up and get a live person and say Hey, I paid you all $105, you took my $600, how do I still owe you $70 when my original tax bill was only $655?" Oh get ready for this....they charged me $105 to SET UP MY MONTHLY PAYMENT ACCOUNT!!!!! WHAT?!?!?!?!?! Are you KIDDING me?!?!?!?! Which, by the way, is an account I won't need to be using, since they took away my stimulus check. But can I get it back? NO, cause they are crooks!! And, now, I am not going to have NEAR enough money to get to NY for my brother's wedding. It will definitely be a tight squeeze. I am actually having to have no taxes taken out of my next few paychecks just so I can get bills in order and have enough to get there. So YAY!! I'll get to owe them again! Gotta love how our society works. Only in America do we charge poor people for being poor. Take car insurance. Most don't know this, but insurance companies use your credit to determine your rates. And guess what...if you have bad credit, you pay more for car insurance. Like, ok, I don't make enough money as it is, which is why I have bad credit in the first place, so let's jack up the prices so I can't afford even more things, making my credit even worse. And with the prices of everything going up, the problem is just going to get worse. I just don't get the rationaled that people with good credit are better drivers. And what does my credit have to do with insurance? If I don't pay my bill, then I don't have insurance. If I crash my car without insurance, that affects only me, not the insurance companies. Look at all the rich celebrities and whatnot, with DWI/DUI up the wazoo. But I'll bet they pay less in car insurance than I do, cause they have money. When is our society going to wake up and realize that they way we are running things isn't working??

Ok, enough on that tangent. Happier things coming up....

Tomorrow, Pete and I celebrate 6 months together!! We are going to Water World to celebrate and I cannot tell you how excited I am to go!! I haven't been to a Water Park in AGES!! and I love them!!! We both have been giddy about this all week. And the bonus is....his mom got us the tickets as a gift, so we only have to pay for stuff on the inside if we want it. We are going to be bringing in a cooler so we can just save money on things like drinks and whatnot.

Tomorrow Pete will also be testing for Denver PD. I'm really hoping that this is it for him. He has some really good prospects both there and in Aurora (I hooked him up with one of my clients who is a detective, so now he has a really good reference there) He also has an interview with Jefferson County Sherrifs Dept, but he will only take that one if he doesn't get Denver or Aurora. Things are really starting to look up for him in respects to his career. Keep your fingers crossed that he gets what he wants.

Hmmm...what else....not sure if I have written about this, but our apartment is a hole. We are still without a dishwasher. It's been about 3 weeks or so since our dishwasher sparyed some unknown disgusting smelly sludge all over our dishes. We are supposedly getting a new one, but they are waiting for "a part" because apparantly the new dishwasher comes in two pieces?? Does anyone else smell something?? Oh and it's been over 2 months since the cable guy broke my bedroom door, over a month since he paid for it, and I still have a broken bedroom door. So, we are stuck in this place until next July, but we will definitely be moving to a nicer place when our lease is up. We were thinking of a nice townhome, but we'll see what's out there.

I think that is about it, like I said.....it's been crazy.......

4th of July

OK, so I know I am few days late, but Happy 4th of July!! I had a complete blast. Pete's boss invited us and a few others up to his cabin in the mountains. It was absolutely gorgeous there. We got to enjoy the scenery by canoeing on the lake. I got some nice pictures (with my cell phone, as my camera broke :-( ) I would have to say that only downfall to the entire day was the woman there who would not shut up. She was the type of person who is always right, always has an answer and always has an opinion on something...no matter what the topic. She drove everyone nuts all day!! The funny part is that she wasn't really invited...her boyfriend overheard his boss talking about it and asked when they should be there...so then he felt obligated to invite them. It's kinda sad actually. Anyway, after all that we went just down the road to Nederland and watched the fireworks over the lake there. It was probably one of the best shows I have been to in a long time. Anyway, here are some pictures from the Canoe....enjoy!!


Yeah, I could get used to this. We are actually going back in a few weeks, so I will be sure to get more pics.


And now, Introduce Pete, the Biggest Dork on the Planet!! And I love him :-)














So that was my 4th in a nutshell. Had a blast and I can't wait to get back up there. It is Heaven on Earth!!

Updates Updates Update

It's been a little while since my last post. Sorry!! Well, as I said before, Pete and I have moved in together and things are going perfectly so far. We've been a little slack in getting things unpacked and getting the apartment to where it looks like we live there and not just using it as a storage locker, but we'll get there. :-) We've come up with a great plan to get all of our debt paid off too. I think that I can hack most of mine out by the end of the year. Once I get my credit cards paid off I will only have the car payment and my student loan. I'm thinking about doubling up those payments once I get the cards paid off, but we'll see where the finances are. Once we get all that paid off we are going to start saving to buy (or possibly build) a new house. I figure if we can get enough saved up for a nice piece of land and a good chunk of the building costs, we will be sitting pretty. I, personally, would prefer to build because we have such specific things we want our house to have. I want to have a good kitchen (for once in my life!!), he wants a martial arts room. I'd also like to have a game room (with a pool table, fooseball, etc.) So anyway, we figure in about 5-7 years we can probably have enough saved up for that. Luckily our bills aren't too much, and with our salaries combined we have that much more to work with. I'm still tossing around the idea of a second job that I can use to specifically save up for the big things, but I am not sure if I want the stress of that yet. We shall see. It's been nice only having to work 8 hours in a day and have two days off a week. It's been so long since I have been able to say that!!

Pete has been bringing up the future alot lately as well. I woke up one morning last week to a text message that said "I'm going to marry you" It absolutely made my heart melt when I read it. He's also been bringing up making a family together. He's even named our first son already :-) Well, we both did, but he brought it up first (I swear!!!) He wants to name him after his brother (Gabriel) and I want to use my grandpas first name as his middle (Pasquale) Now I know Pasquale is not a very common name, but it actually flows really well together, especially with his last name. So, now we just need to make sure we have a boy!! I think we may be screwed if we ever have a girl, cause I have no idea what we would name her!! Anyway, I think I am getting a bit ahead of myself here. It's just so nice to be able to talk about the future and know that the person I am with has the same feelings and outlook as me. I have spent way to many years of my life with guys who say they don't want to get married or they don't want kids and me thinking I can change that. I'm glad to finally be with someone who wants all the same things as me. It's the best feeling in the world.

We are getting ready for our drive back out to NY in August. I still can't believe that my little brother is getting married!!! I should be getting my dress for that this week and I am praying that it fits. I am nervous because I had to order it over the phone, so I have no idea how it is going to fit. Well, if worst come to worse I will just have to have it altered and hope for the best. My other concern is that it is strapless and I am going to have a hell of a time find a bra that is going to fit my knockers!! I'm also getting excited about this trip because it means that I can get my babies back!! I have missed them so much these last few months. When my dad or my brother tell me stories about things they have done I just start crying because I feel so bad that I don't have them with me. So, less than two months to go and I will have them back with me!! I'm hoping they don't punish me too badly for leaving them so long. I know my dog tends to hold a grudge. She was pretty unruly for my brother for about a month after I dropped her off with him.

Ok, so I think I have made this long enough. Those are my updates for now. Maybe I'll brave posting pics of me in the dress when I get it.

It's official!!

So, after deciding that we are going to move in together after a year (Jan '09), AND after moving some of his stuff to Lakewood, Pete starts mentioning about how he wished that he were just moving in with me, how it is stupid for him to be paying rent at a place he is never going to use, etc. So, on Sunday, he says, if you still want me to I want to move in. Of course I said YES!! I am over the moon about this. Even though we have only been together for 5 months, we have already been through so much together. And seriously, it's like we were living together already since I moved into my apartment, he has spent every night there. I think that had a lot to do with him changing his mind. He's been so cute lately. He will randomly turn to me and say "You know I'm going to marry you, right?" It just melts my heart to hear that and I get all giddy. Now if only I can get him to turn off the lights before he leaves the house.......

Less to see...More to love!!

As the warm weather approaches, I am finding myself less and less motivated to do things. I had great plans to get off my butt and start getting into shape. This past weekend was absolutely gorgeous and the only time I left my apartment was to go grocery shopping. I definitely need to get my brain and body out of this funk. I have just 3 months to lose some weight before my brothers wedding. It's bad enough that I have to wear a strapless dress with my huge boobies, but I don't want to look fat in it as well. I am going to make a pact with myself that I am going to get off my butt at least twice during the week and take a nice long walk. And definitely I will be resuming my hikes on the weekend with Pete. I can't wait until I get my dog out here so that I can have a bit more motivation to get out there. She is definitely an outside dog. She loves getting into nature (and getting into trouble!!) I really have no excuse to not get in shape. I have a fitness center AND a pool in my apartment complex. There is no reason that I can't walk over there after dinner and work off some poundage. I guess I just need to reprogram myself. So here it is...hold me to it now...I am vowing to lose at LEAST 10 pounds by August 1st!! After I weigh myself I am going to readjust my weightloss ticker at the top of my page. I've been cheating sort of in the fact that I have gained back some of the weight I had lost. It's only about 5 pounds that I gained back, but it is so noticeable to me. I look at myself and I am disgusted. So it is lunches at home and dinners at home. I'm not saying they are all going to be healthy, but healthier than eating out. Sadly since I moved here in April, I started eating out a lot again. A lot of it had to do with the fact that I didn't have my own place to live in, so cooking was sort of tough. I spent a lot of time out with Pete and not so much at the place I was staying. Now that I have my own place, the trend unfortunately continued. If there is anyone out there that actually reads this and would like to be my "weight loss buddy" the extra support would be much appreciated.

Another Year Down

As most of you know it was my 29th birthday yesterday. All in all I had a great day. I went to work as usual and just did my thing there. Right before 5 Pete showed up with flowers in hand which I though was very sweet. We went back to my place and he gave me my present which was 2 books I had been wanting. One is a huge compilation of pulp fiction from the 20s 30s and 40s. I am so excited to get started on that one!! The other one is a book filled with all the hiking trails in Colorado which you can take your dog on. I can not wait to try them out once Inigo gets here in August! After present time we went to dinner. If you have never had Ethiopian food before, I HIGHLY recommend it. It was so frickin good!!! I'l have to admit that I was a bit wary at first, but it was definitely a great meal. One of the best I have had in a long time, and it seemed to be relatively healthy too. I felt like I ate a substantive meal, but I didn't feel weighed down by it. I will definitely be going back there. After dinner we went to Borders and just bummed around for a bit. I ended up buying myself another book. It was one of the "Get Fuzzy" comic strip compilation books. To repeat myself (kinda), if you haven't read "Get Fuzzy" I HIGHLY reccommend it. Very funny stuff. So after Borders we went and saw "Baby Mama". That was definitely a good flick. The actors were great in it (Steve Martin was awesome) and the story line was good too. I know that Pete hadn't been too keen on going to see the "chick flick", but he was laughing all the way through it and admitted that it was a great movie. So, I had a great birthday. The best part of it all was spending it with the man I love.

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I'm not homeless anymore!!

I officially have a place to live! I'm really excited and looking forward to getting all of my stuff situated in there. It is going to be a really big change for me though, since I moved out of a 3 bedroom house and into a 1 bedroom apartment, but it will all work out I'm sure. I'm curious as to how all of my stuff is going to fit into my bedroom. I think my new room is about half the size of my old one, but I know it will all work out the way it is supposed to. If I can get my camera to work I will post up some pictures soon. Lately it has been giving me a black screen when I try to take pics. It might be time to get a new one. I hope not though, cause I had big plans for that camera this summer and I can't afford a new one!

So, anyway, I just wish that this day would end so I can start moving some stuff.

Oh and Happy May Day on this blustering snowy Thursday!! Gotta love Colorado!

Spring? Maybe?

After a snowstorm last week, I think that spring has finally Sprung in the Denver Metro area. HOORAY!!!! It's a beautiful sunny day out there today, and I'm just sitting here wishing I wasn't stuck at work. I have been doing pretty well lately with getting my butt outside and doing active things. Pete and I went on quite a few walks over the weekend. The best one was when we went up to his parents house. The live up in the mountains in Boulder. The views are amazing up there and it was a really great workout walking up and down the mountain slopes. Of course the best part was soaking in his parents hot tub afterwards. Can't complain about that.

I'm getting really excited about moving into my apartment next week. I went out and bought my airbed yesterday so I won't be sleeping on the floor for 2 weeks. It's supposed to be a really good one, but we shall see. I suppose if it is bad I can always just chant the mantra "it's only 2 weeks, it's only 2 weeks"

I've been getting pretty worried about my finances also. I have so much going on this summer and all of it requires a pretty hefty investment. I have to go back to NY for my brothers wedding which is going to end up costing several hundred dollars. I also have my friend's wedding the week before that which is in Montrose, so that's going to cost me money also. I've got to rent the moving truck mid may, plus gas money, so there is probably about $400 there. Then after the wedding in NY, I am going to be bringing my dog and cats back to CO to live permanently, but I need to come up with a $500 deposit. Oh the joys. I may need to get a second job just to pay for this summer. I'm really hoping that I get that tax rebate check soon, because that is the only thing that will get me through this summer.

Other than all that, things are going well. I really just can't wait until I can get back on my feet and into my own place.