Wating.....

So, I'm pretty unsure where I am at in my cycle. I chart my temps at www.fertilityfriend.com. However, for the first time EVER FF is screwing with my head. I have temped in the past before we were trying (even before I met my DH) just to see what my body does. It helped me to avoid getting preggo before cause I knew the signs and about where in my cycle I was to make sure I was extra careful. Now FF has decided to give me not 1, but 3!!! ovulation dates. The first one I was ok with, the second time, it just got moved up a day, not a problem cause we still had good timing. THEN it decides to move it AGAIN! To a date that is nowhere NEAR a day that we tried. I'm still thinking that the second day it gave me is correct, but suffice it to say, I have no clue where I am at in my cycle. I may be 8DPO or I may be 11 DPO. I guess I'll find out if my Aunt Flo shows up in the next few days. Still hoping she doesn't though.

On a happier note, we are finally moving out of the sh*t hole we live in this week!! Nothing gives me greater joy! Especially after the last few months we have spent there. The most recent being, they shut down the pool because the miscreants they let live there vandalized the pool area, which in turn means we can only use the gym during their office hours because the only other entrance is through the pool area. Not a problem right? Wrong. I, like most people, work during the day, and because of traffic I don't get home until well after the office closes. But that's not even the best part. I was able to get in there this weekend. I start running on the treadmill, get about halfway to my distance goal and the damn thing just shuts off on me. So I try to restart it, but it keeps resetting before I can get it going again. I finally get it going and after about 3 minutes (just as I was getting into my run) it shuts off again! I think that was the only piece of equipment left in the gym that actually did work. So now I am scouring Craigs List to see if I can find a decent one for cheap that we can use in our new house. And then, they didn't change the setting on the door going into the gym from the office so it doesn't automatically lock behind you. So, I, being the proactive one, leave the door cracked a bit so I can get back out. Doesn't some jerk come up while I'm on the treadmill and close it. So I go to leave and I am locked in the damn room. I bang on the door and no one answers. I call the office, no answer. Finally, I decided to go into the pool area to see if the door they didn't chain shut would open, and luckily it did, cause the moron who works in the office just up and left. Gotta love it.....

Less to see...More to love!!

As the warm weather approaches, I am finding myself less and less motivated to do things. I had great plans to get off my butt and start getting into shape. This past weekend was absolutely gorgeous and the only time I left my apartment was to go grocery shopping. I definitely need to get my brain and body out of this funk. I have just 3 months to lose some weight before my brothers wedding. It's bad enough that I have to wear a strapless dress with my huge boobies, but I don't want to look fat in it as well. I am going to make a pact with myself that I am going to get off my butt at least twice during the week and take a nice long walk. And definitely I will be resuming my hikes on the weekend with Pete. I can't wait until I get my dog out here so that I can have a bit more motivation to get out there. She is definitely an outside dog. She loves getting into nature (and getting into trouble!!) I really have no excuse to not get in shape. I have a fitness center AND a pool in my apartment complex. There is no reason that I can't walk over there after dinner and work off some poundage. I guess I just need to reprogram myself. So here it is...hold me to it now...I am vowing to lose at LEAST 10 pounds by August 1st!! After I weigh myself I am going to readjust my weightloss ticker at the top of my page. I've been cheating sort of in the fact that I have gained back some of the weight I had lost. It's only about 5 pounds that I gained back, but it is so noticeable to me. I look at myself and I am disgusted. So it is lunches at home and dinners at home. I'm not saying they are all going to be healthy, but healthier than eating out. Sadly since I moved here in April, I started eating out a lot again. A lot of it had to do with the fact that I didn't have my own place to live in, so cooking was sort of tough. I spent a lot of time out with Pete and not so much at the place I was staying. Now that I have my own place, the trend unfortunately continued. If there is anyone out there that actually reads this and would like to be my "weight loss buddy" the extra support would be much appreciated.