WWCD?

I've been thinking about it. More like fantasizing that Todd is going come to his senses, tell me he made a mistake and he wants to get back together. The more I think about it though, the more I doubt it is going to happen. I have been posing myself with the question "what would I do if he does want me back?" I've been thinking long and hard about this, and even though I love him, I don't know that I would go back to him. I don't know if I can deal with the pain everytime he gets spooked about something in our relationship and decides he needs to break up with me. I deserve better than that, I know I do. But then I think about how good he was too me, how sweet he is and I find myself stuggling with that decision. So I guess I am back to square one. Ultimately I know that I will be better off just keeping it as friends with him. And maybe down the road when he matures (and maybe me too...who knows) then we might stand a chance. But I'm not going to sit around and wait for that to happen. I'm gonna go out and live my life to the fullest, and if I meet someone else, then so be it. I won't be actively looking for a while, but if something comes along, I'm not gonna pass up the opportunity based on a what if. Just as I told Todd, you can't base your life on what if's. I'm going to take my own advice and fly by the seat of my pants......