D-Day!

So wow! I can't believe that I have neglected my little bloggy space for my ENTIRE pregnancy! I have made it to the end (and will probably still go over by a bit) It's been a great pregnancy with really no complications at all. As of my appointment last week I was a steel trap still with no signs of this little one coming out. We did find out at 20 weeks that we are having a girl. We have decided to name her Lydia Rose. And don't laugh at me, but I got her name from the movie Innerspace (Dennis Quaid, Meg Ryan, Martin Short) Meg Ryan's character's name in it was Lydia. I was watching the movie shortly after we found out we were pregnant and just fell in love with the name! I have another appointment this afternoon to see if I have made any more progress (fingers crossed that something has happened! With any luck I will have my little girl by the time the weekend is out! Come on full moon and work your magic!!!!!!

Yes...It's True....

I am happy to announce that after 6 months of trying, the Hubster and I finally did it! We are now almost 9 weeks along with our little demon child (I swear it looks like a demon in the ultrasound pic!! Or a T-Rex....) It was definitely a shock to us to have it happen when it did, because I thought for sure we were out the month we conceived. I was 2000 miles away at my brother's wedding (congrats guys!!) during most of my fertile period and we really only got 1 good BD in. But it's what they say, it only takes one....LOL! I'm convinced it was the rollercoaster that did it though. Fast forward to the end of the TWW. It's October 30th, I take a test, BFN as expected, so we decide to go have some fun, ride some rides, rollercoasters, visit a few haunted houses, etc. Had a blast I must say (even though the Hubster was a chicken shit and would only go on 1 rollercoaster with me...BOOO!!!) The next (Halloween for all that are keeping up), I decide to punish myself again by taking yet another test. But, wait! What's this? Could it be? A LINE?!?!?!?! Holy $@!#!!! I ran downstairs to the Hubster to ask his opinion. He wasn't sure, but he thought he saw it too. At this point I'm freaking out cause the line is so light and I used one of those damned Dollar Tree (love you!) tests. So I wasn't sure if it was a false positive or not. I decide I'm going to take a picture and post it online for my "Preggo Friends" to decipher. I put the test down on the floor of the landing on the stairs cause that's where the best light is. Zorro the wonder kitty decides he wants to help. As I am focusing up the camera he shows up out of nowhere, pounces on the test and sends it flying across the room. Score one for the kitty!! I finally got the picture taken and all the online girls confirmed that they see the line too. Whew! I'm not crazy! (Well, that's up for debate, but moving on...) I decided to go ahead and exhaust my supply of Dollar Tree tests, just cause I really liked seeing that line. Unfortunately all of those tests, while still coming up postive, just looked a bit weird. So I decided I was going to bite the bullet and buy one of those fancy schmancy digital tests. I brought that bad boy home, peed on it, waited, and.....YES!!! It said Pregnant. Now it seemed real. I went and had my first appointment at 6 weeks to do all the blood draws, STD tests, and actually confirm the pregancy and then at 8 weeks we had our first ultrasound. Our little Demon is measuring right on track with a very strong heartbeat and we couldn't be any happier about it.

As far as the pregnancy is going for me. Well, I just wish the nausea would go away. So far (knock on wood) I have only thrown up once (knock on wood again for good measure). I have definitely come close several times in the past few days though. And I swear the bathroom at work is out to get me! It constantly smells like someone took a huge shit in it!! I finally came to my senses though and started bringing febreeze into the room with me whenever I have to go (which is like every 2 minutes! Seriously?) Eating has become a challenge also. Nothing ever sounds good, but if I don't eat something, then I get really nauseous. It's a lose lose situation. According to the Dr though, I only will have to deal with this for about 1 1/2 more weeks. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that she knows what she's talking about.

Holy Egg White, Batman!

For those not in the know, Egg White (or EWCM for short) stands for Egg White Cervical Mucus. Basically, it's the most fertile type and you typically find it when you are ovulating. It got it's clever name because it looks like.....wait for it....egg whites!! Pretty genius, no? So, anyway, lots of ewcm for me the past 3 days. I think I may be super ovulating this month. Not only am I spewing the stuff (TMI?) but I have had ovulation pains the last 3 days as well. Lord help me if I ovulated 3 times and we end up with triplets (is that even possible unmedicated?) Anyway, it's prescence is making me feel a bit more optimistic about this month, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I'm trying to just go with the flow this month and I'm not really obsessing about every little thing. At least, that's what I keep telling myself......

Is Everybody Pregnant?

Seems like it. It's so funny how your midset changes when you are trying to conceive. Before I got married I would see a pregnant woman and be like "Oh, she's so cute with her belly, I can't wait till I can have one too". Now it's more like "Get out of my way you @#$%! preggo! Can't you see I don't want your big ol' belly in my face?!?!?" And I hate to be that way, but it is such a truth. The Hubster keeps telling people we are trying anytime they ask us if we have kids. I didn't mind at first, but now it's like, now that those people know, I feel like a failure every time they ask us if we are preggo yet. I'd rather not have people know and then be able to say "SURPRISE!!" But then again, who am I kidding....I'm putting our troubles out on the interwebs for all to see. Anyone he tells, can easily get on my Facebook page and click on the link to my blog and just read for themselves. But, on the other hand, people reading about it would know about my frustrations and hopefully have the scruples to not say anything to me about it. But that's asking a lot, I know. ***sigh*** I guess one can never win in this situation.

On the upside, even though he SWORE he wouldn't do it, the Hubster bought me a new car!! Its a 2010 Kia Soul Plus and I am absolutely in LOVE with it! The main reason I wanted a new car was so when we do have kids, we would be able to fit them in the car. My Jetta just wouldn't cut it I'm afraid. Plus, I had that car for 7 years. I think I was due for a new one, no? We got a really great deal on it too and the dealer was WAY generous on the trade in for the Jetta which is awesome!

Until next time!

Big Fuckin' Negative

So the abbreviation BFN stands for Big Fat Negative. I am officially renaming it Big Fuckin' Negative! Cause that's what I got....AGAIN! Whoop-de-dee-dooo! I'm pretty sure the Flo will be starting tomorrow, so it's off to another month. Wish us luck!

Getting Frustrated....

I know...it's only been 4 months. I know....on average it takes 6 months to a year to conceive. I know.....but I'm still frustrated. It's been compounded by the fact that a woman I work with announced she was PG a few weeks ago. They weren't trying which is a bigger slap in the face. I'm trying to be happy for her, but it hasn't been easy. It seems like all I hear out of her mouth is baby, baby, baby. Yeah...great...you're excited...I get that...have some consideration for the person in the office who is trying to have a baby and hasn't had any luck yet....k.thanks.bye. I'm also struglgling with the fact that if I get PG this cycle, work will be put in a lurch because it's possible that our maternity leave will overlap. My manager actually told me I should space it out. I told her it was a little late for that, cause we were already past the point of no return by that time. I talked that over with my Hubs and some friends and they all agreed that it's not my fault or problem that she got PG first. We had already been trying for 3/4 months and we shouldn't put our life on hold because of her bad timing. I still have some hope that we got it this month, but it's small hope. We didn't get much BD in due to the Hubster's schedule (he works overnights and I work days). I had a really vivid dream the other night that I took a HPT and got the ever elusive BFP. I woke that morning feeling really good about it....peed on a stick.....negativo! I also had a really strange episode where I was on the phone with a client and I got an overwhelming urge for potato salad. Like, I could actually taste it in my mouth, I wanted it that bad. Not sure if that is a sign or not, or if I'm just really weird....probably the latter. I've had some weird cramping this month, but it could be pre-AF cramping....who knows. I'm planning on taking another test tomorrow if the Flo doesn't decide to make an appearance. ***sigh***

In other news....the mountains outside of Boulder have been subjected to an insane wildfire. My in-laws unfortunately have been affected and are currently in limbo wondering whether or not their home is still there. Last we knew it was unaffected, but the way the winds have been, that could change quickly. So all thoughts and prayers would be much appreciated for them.

Until next time.....

And we're waiting again...

So, we had a no go last cycle, so now we are onto Cycle 3. I have ovulated and fertility friend has NOT moved my ovulation date around 50 bajillion times this month!! The kicker on the last cycle? Towrds the end of the cycle, it moved it back to CD 12. Seriously? Just leave it there. Anyway....so now I am 9DPO and fighting the urge to take a test. I think the only thing keeping me from peeing on that damn stick is the fact that I am broke till payday and I only have 1 test left. I don't want to waste it by testing too early and then have to wait even longer to test again....that would totally suck!

So I've had a few different things happen this cycle. Not sure if they are "signs" per se, but I've never felt them before, so for all I know, they could be. The first one is a few days after I O'd I felt this strange fluttering in my lower stomach area. Now it could have been gas, but it was more like a muscle spasm type feeling (not painful, more like when your eye twitches) I felt it again just a few days ago as well. And of course I have the normal "signs", frequent peeing, sore boobies, etc. Time will tell in the end though.

We finally got all finished moving. Now comes the fun part....unpacking. I just have not had the motivation to do.that.at.all! Someday it will all get done. I need to get the boxes that are stacked in the dining room unpacked so I can at least set up the dining room table. Maybe that will be my goal for this week. Clear out the dining room and set up the table.....yeah.....we'll see if that happens......